Craziness!!!

July 2010

 We spent every waking moment preparing to head to the hospital at some point during the day. Sometimes early in the morning to very late at night. When Anthony had the day's off we would head to the hospital first thing in the morning. We'd spend the whole day with Nicholas and leave late at night. When he worked the night shift I'd either meet him at work or meet him in Pittsburgh. My wonderful family took time out of their nights to take me to Nick. Even my father would borrow a car from his work to take me to Pittsburgh after a ride had fallen though. My bio-mom had to work that night and took their car before we knew I wouldn't have a way down. My cousins (second mother and father) would take me as well, even though they would get home late, and mum would have to go to work early the next day. We made due though. For the first week I had never felt so tired in my whole life! I've been to Pittsburgh so many times, but every night drive seemed longer than the day before. I had to remind myself that I just given birth via c-section and my body was working in over drive. I needed to slow down! And rest.

For two weeks we drove back and forth everyday. Drained our bank accounts in gas, food and parking money. Every time we thought Nicky was coming home he'd have another bradycardia. When they have these spells they keep them for 7 days until 'brady' free. I swear he'd go 6 days, then have another UGH! But he was in good hands!

He lost a lot of weight while in. Born 4lbs 6ozs and went down to about 3lbs 14ozs. That was a bit scary! He also didn't get he idea to suck, swallow and breath at the same time. So they had to give him a feeding tube. To which Nick pulled out twice! The second time they left it out to see how well he would do on his own, a success! He did great! That's my boy! Gaining weight, eating good, brady's seem to be false at this point!

7/25/2010

Baby shower! My wonderful family and friends threw me a beautiful baby shower! Although most of my guests didn't bother to show up or even call for that matter, it turned out to be a fantastic day! Not only did I have so many people who love me surrounding me showering Nicholas with gifts. I also got a call the Nicholas would be moved from the NICU to the step down unit! YES! One step closer to coming home. Awesome news I must say. But the fact that my guests didn't come to Nick's shower was quite depressing. It hurt me for a while because they said they were coming. Not that I wanted their gift, I wanted to welcome Nick into the world with them. I think the worst part was my biological mother didn't come, actually neither grandmothers came. But we pressed on I had so much love from my other mum, friends Tarah and Kylie, my favorite sister in law Mary and her daughter Jessica. We decided to let the boys stay, after all someone had to eat all the food we made. It was a picture perfect day!

The days go by and we stand by Nicks side. Still recovering from a c-section, totally drained and trying to breastfeed. I needed sleep! So I did! I slept for hours. Christian was off having fun with his big Cousin Mike, and I slept the hours away. Had the phone not rang I would have slept for days on end! Good think someone did call it was 2pm!!! Back into mommy mode! Pump, shower, get dressed, pack clean clothes for Christian and Nicholas and be out the door by 4:30. Seem easy. Not really! I just have to say that I give so much credit to breastfeeding moms! You guys rock! I wish I could say the same for myself. My body has let me down. I had a premature baby and I was not supposed to be breastfeeding yet according to my body. In the beginning I'd produce plenty a week later a drop or two. I tried everything. Eventually I had to hung up the 'hoses' and go with formula. I'm still proud of myself for at least trying. Not proud of the $350 breast pump that is now collecting dust under Nick's crib. Well, there is always the next one...maybe lol.

More blogs to come <3